ice skating, mexican food, and the straight 5th wheel

So last nite i went to Montgomery with one of bestest guy friends to meet his boyfriend and another couple. We went ice skating which they all seemed to do with out much problem but i barely left the wall and little kids were skating circles around me lol but im glad to say at least i tried it. We then went to eat at a mexican restaurant and the food was reallly good! and then we left the other couple and went and saw Youth in Revolt. The was pretty good not amazing but a cute lil comedy. Overall it was a good nite and im glad i didn't skip out and stay home with the family like i do every night.

As happy as i am for my friend seeing him and other cute couples kinda makes me sad. I use to be a cute couple but now idk i just feel lonely like im missing my other half. And i know i shouldn't miss him cause of allll the things hes done but at 22 a 3 year relationship feels like forever and now its nothing. I really don't want to be in another relationship anytime soon cause i know i would break it apart with my current trust issues and i know i need to be happy with myself before i can be happy with anyone else but in this moment it doesn't help the loneliness. I know this feeling wont last forever but its just bleh right now