im so tired of being lonely.
I was lonely all deployment and im still lonely.
I miss having someone there for me
Im not ready for someone new
I wish school or work was actually goin on to keep me busy but even the few days ive worked lately i wish i had someone to go home and tell about my day or to give me a back massage cause im sore and tired frm lifting kids all day.
I cant wait to be completely moved on. I dont want to be so bitter and angry anymore. I dont want to be soo distrusting and paranoid. I worked hard over the years to build my confidence and now its like am i enough? will the next guy get tired of me and find some other girl to replace me? I hate feeling like im not enough.
I wish the following would happen...
daniel would sign the papers
daniel would leave me alone
I get the job at the sleep clinic and be trained as a sleep tech
maybe meet a nice guy and go on dates
buy myself a house
get a yorkie mix
